Just had a blast of emotion while sat on the sofa, I don't think I have every feel so lonely and frightened as I do when it is time to get CT results, this is the worst it has been.

I am terrified that Wednesday I will be told that Theo has progressed. I have got to stay positive and not let this get to me but it is so hard.

I wish my dad was here, he would say just what I would want to hear and give me the biggest hug he could find.

He had such great advice, I loved him so much and miss him even more.

I will have to shake my tail feathers and get out of this mood.